You're a Karma.

Karma's a bitch, so are you. Guess your name's Karma.

What else is good in this world if promises were not kept? If everything you believed in were lies from the beginning.

I trusted you, you gave me hope. I told myself  'It's okay, move on. We'll be better off without each other. At least you will.". 

Don't look back in anger, Oasis said. I say, fuck that shit.

Reason or excuse

Became a runner/jogger. 

Probably just a passing phase, like how keeping long hair was the 'in thing' to do for guys around 15 - 18 years of age.

So I jogged in the morning, 6 klick in 38 minutes. And I felt like jogging again, in the night. 8 klick in 48 minutes. Somehow, my timing got better in the night. Felt really awesome after the jogs. Never imagined myself running 14 klick in a day.

I ran for a reason, or an excuse, your choice. To be good at something. I need, and want, to be good at something. I don't want to be a loser, or an average joe, anymore. Tired of not having achievements in life.

For now, I have something to prove to myself. Good day.

After the run in the morning.

Bike Fetishes

I love bikes. Motorbike, or motorcycles. Especially these types.

I need names for these bikes! I know that the first two are steeds, or low-rider, or heavy bikes, or whatever
else. I'm not a huge bike enthusiast who knows every single name of the bikes on the market, but my eyes light up when I see one of such kinds.

Dear Mama.

You told me I needed to better myself intellectually before she would accept me. I believed you, and I tried my best. I gave my all and I took the fall. I have regrets, but I'm also kinda glad that I did what I did. I managed to move on, and I eventually did. But every once in awhile, my ever-so-hardworking brain will remind me of stuffs that I've forgotten and it all leads back to her. Dead mama, I have one last question. What is wrong with me? What is the deal breaker of me that seems to turn all of the girls off?

Music Madness

Best two hours of my life spent on watching MTV. I was literally screaming and rapping to every single song. The list was a little weird though. But the top 20 songs were

20: The Way I am (155,000 UK sales)
19: Cleanin' Out My Closet (165,000 UK sales)
18: When I'm Gone (185,000 UK sales)
17: Guilty Conscience (Didn't take note)
16: Forget About Dre (215,000 UK sales)
15: Like Toy Soldiers (220,000 UK sales)
14: My Band (240,000 UK sales)
13: Just Lose It (245,000 UK sales)
12: Purple Hills/Pills (285,000 UK sales)
11: We Made You (310,000 UK sales)
10: Smack That (355,000 UK sales)
9: Ghetto Gospel (370,000 UK sales)
8: Not Afraid (425,000 UK sales)
7: My Name Is (430,000 UK sales)
6: In Da Club (455,000 UK sales)
5: The Real Slim Shady (510,000 UK sales)
4: Without Me (570,000 UK sales)
3: Lose Yourself (690,000 UK sales)
2: Stan (805,000 UK sales)
1: Love The Way You Lie (920,000 UK sales)

And my god were the songs catchy. About some of the songs like In Da Club, Ghetto Gospel and Smack That, he helped produced the songs that's why it's considered as one of his. Great hits, seriously great hits. Go check them out on Youtube if you haven't heard it already!

One of the shots I took. Damn I love Eminem

Papers

It's the comparison between the stack of notes I had to study and my wallet.

It may not seem like much, but this is the most I have ever done for an exam. Three papers got my brain so drained of its juice, I didn't even realized I had locked the door from the inside when I got home. My dad couldn't get it and thought I was doing something stupid. I'm so glad the examinations are over, my brain can take no more of that crap. Already looking forward to a great holiday. 

Stray kitty cat.

I have never been quite a 'cat person' for my whole life. But look at this kitty and tell me how anyone can not fall in love with it. 

Her constant high pitch purring whenever I walk past it gets me to squat down and pat her on her head. She's really skinny but she wouldn't eat any of the food I bring down. A few sips of water was all she consumed. I had spent more than a half hour with her and I think I can safely say I'm finally a cat person. 

She is really sweet and let me play with her. It's a pity I can't bring her home, she could really use a home to sleep and rest in.

Dear macarons,

Just had my first taste of macarons. One word, perfect.
I never thought that they were crunchy, and oh-so-sweet. I fell in love with the first bite!
Why would anyone offer pie when they can offer macarons? I say fuck pie! Here, have some MACARONS! Sweet, crunchy, colorful macarons. Damn I love macarons.

Change of heart.

While at the airport, after sending my second sister off for her first experience of flight, a book store caught my attention. I had to go in there and browse at stuffs. I was not at a good place, emotionally, and I needed enlightenment from whatever ways possible. I thought, since my interest for art has grown so unexpectedly, why not read some books?

I bought 2 books
"Shit My Dad Says" by Justin Halpern
"A Simple Act Of Gratitude" by John Kralik

One day later, I finished reading the first book. I'm so amazed by my sudden change of interest. It's been a long time since I last read a proper book, let alone finish it. It felt great, it was as if I had taken a journey with the author of the book. The quotes inside of the books are too god damn great. I'll list a few and you will have to go and buy the book to read the rest.


"People are always trying to tell you how they feel. Some say it outright, and some of them, they tell you with their actions. And you have to listen. Listen, and don't ignore what you hear."

"That woman was sexy. . . . Out of your league? Son, let women figure out why they won't screw you. Don't do it for them."

"Focus on living,  dying is the easy part."

Freaking piece of art. Go get it!

Accepted

Feels good to be accepted by a bunch of people.
It was the last lesson for a module today, and I felt so touched when the class asked me to take a class photo with them. The thing is, I'm from a totally different class, and I joined their class for that module because I was failing other modules. And they were the elites in our school, studying Aviation and Management. I was considered an outcast, but they accepted me.

They helped me answer a question and applauded when I finally spoke for the first time in front of the class for the whole semester. I felt really happy. I couldn't stop smiling.

It's funny how things work out. I was so dejected yesterday, but today brought a whole new chapter to this story of mine. I just hope that I had thanked them for making me feel welcomed.

Sorry

For leaving without any notice. I just needed to see who is real and who is not. Though I roughly have the answers in my mind, I need evidences.